saya positive

need to think positive...
& be positive!

its hard to make them understand me

i feel like a jerk!
owh common..
im not in the mood!
shut up & stay away from me loser!
uhuh..
sorry but i cant stand it anymore dengan suara2 sumbang tue.
i need to breath in peacefully.

aku just penat.
wont they let me alone?
just buat keje kau sudahlah.
jgnlah tambahkan lg mood tak baik aku nie.
im emotionally depressed!
i hate those kind of feeling.

makin lama i rasa sangat sakit..
& mcm dah tak terdaya lagi dah.
im totally sick!
i thought i would be fine.
but,
my body is too weak.
keletihan tahap melampau...
an unstable emotional.
tambah lagi dgn my back yang lately selalu sakit.
semuanya buatkan i bertambah sakit.
ouh kaki kenapalah time nie kau nak sakit..
rasanyer mcm nk bengkak.
dr tadi try urut2..
but it doesnt work.
makin tambah sakit.
ouch!

i take medicine ikut time mcm yg doc ckp,
but y i still macam nie?
ya Allah ya Tuhan ku,
kau kuatkanlah aku,kau jauhkanlah aku dari semua yang tak baik.
jauhkan lah aku dr perasaan takut & semuanya..
amin...

hate this feelings

maybe siang tadi terlebih bergalak..
so malam jadi moody!
hormone tak baik..

2012

playground..yuk main sorok-sorok.lihatlah kuku ku macam kuku budak comot!haha

after keluar wayang!kenapa huduh sangat ghupe abg aku nie?wahaha.(ops,ignorekan kualiti gambar ini okay..sigh*)

before dinner

after dinner...pedih perut sampai tak boleh nak habiskan...aoyai tuelah makan lambat lagi!hambek kau aien!

ahah!

seperti yang digambarkan dan di imaginasi oleh mereka-mereka & anda-anda semua.

2012 blh dikatakan best..but if difikir balik..aish boleh plak ada orang yang terselamat after kiamat?

hurm maybe for us as a muslim,memang sangat terpesong.Dah terang-terang orang negara barat yang buatkan..so lantaklah.Overall oklah...cuak juga duduk dalam wayang tue.

ngeri+sedih=macam manalah the real kiamat ea?

buat i rasa nak muhasabah diri kejap.......

hehe...

behind the scene

so tadi my adik telah menjadi partner i menyelamatkan i dari terus2 kebosanan disebabkan i tidak mempunyai bf memandang mereka2 semua bersama kekasut kesayangan mereka.lebih mengayatkan hati lagi apabila si kawan baik i punya bf telah mengambil couple seat untuk kami berempat memandangkan mereka berdua kebetulan mahu menonton juga.

di dalam panggung...

di hadapan i merupakan merpati 2 sejoli iaitu abang dan kakak ipar i yang sedang bersweet-an..

di belakang i pula sepasang lagi merpati yang tak tahu duduk diam dari start sampai habis wayang..huhu!nanti aku nak sediakan seat kalis bunyilah sara untuk korang..bahaha!

so seperti yang telah diberitahu my adik adalah penyelamat i..owh thanx to him lah ok.berlagak seperti bf i pula..mentang2 dia tinggi mcm galah!aiya!

sorry tak dapat upload pict kami sebab muka my adik time i snap tue macam nak terberak..tak sesuai nak dikongsi bersama.kehkeh..mampos aku if dia baca nieh!

so masa tengah khusyuk menghadap screen...pelbagai reaction monyet sumbang telah keluar dengan tidak sengaja dari mimik muka i.

puuupp*

tidak semena-mena i boleh teringatkan dia..

if dulu dialah yang selalu bawak i tengok movie.

bila pandang depan tengok my abang & akak ipar,teringat dia.

bila terasa tendangan bertubi-tubi dari belakang,teringat dia.

bila toleh sebelah,teringat dia.

ouh tidak kenapa tiba-tiba?

hurm tapikan i rasa banyak perubahan yang i alami..

if dulu masa i dengan dia,

i rasa i dah besar,

i rasa i dah boleh buat keputusan sendiri,

i rasa i ada hak nak tentukan apa yang i nak,

i rasa i dah layak untuk jadi seorang isteri.

naluri keibuan tu makin hari makin..hurm..

i memang sukakan budak2.

but now,

i rasa i tak ubah macam budak kecil,

yang langsung tak matang & tak boleh buat keputusan sendiri.(ouh aien rasanya kau mmg tak pernah buat keputusan sendiri melainkan orang lain yang buatkan keputusan untuk kau)

aish macam mana lah kau boleh terfikir sampai bab kahwin?

uhh..semua perempuan akan fikir macam tu kot.kau apa kisah?

tapi kau dah ready ke?

lah ada aku cakap aku nak kahwin sekarang?tadekan...

tp tadi masa tengok baju baby girl..comel sangat!

hati i macam...

ish gila ke apa aku nieh?

nope aien!just forget about it now!

dont u ever think about it coz banyak lagi benda lain yg kau blh fikir aien.

sabar jelah...

dah jangan fikir!

owh my gucci!

meet my painting

my sassy life

Hey it’s been long time i am not write anything about me...because I think my story is not interesting like others to share with. But lately I don’t even know what happen to me. Am I happy being me? Yes! Definitely!

But it’s not a big deal. I love being me, for god sake I am happy with my current life. I have a great parent, a caring sister who always by my side no matter what. Good friends surround me. So what is it? Why it is still bother me?
Ok let me tell ya... I broke up with my current ex boyfriend a few months ago. So what?
Like I care!
Honestly speaking I am not sure what my feelings up to him.
Do I care for him?
No!
Do I hate him?
No!
Do I still love him?
The answer is still no!

Why must I care for him?
He’s not my boyfriend anymore.
Hate? What for? Wasting!
Love? If u asks me 6 months ago, maybe yes.

So what’s the point I’m telling you this?
It has nothing to do with you right?
The problem is, when I realized I’ve no intention with this guy anymore I feel like my feelings are gone too.
I’ll get boring when someone tries to get closer with me.
I’ve no intention with them at all.

I’m 20 year-old.
Just a simple and ordinary girl who are loyal and sincere.
yeah...

gody-too-shoes

u just want to tell these people to give it a rest. They have to do everything more than right, and in doing so, make everybody else look like a slacker. (don't confuse a goody-two-shoes with someone who is genuinly moral).

* They are always five minutes early for class & never forget their homework.

Prom Queen
This girl is the social butterfly. In her eyes life is nothing but a popularity contest.

*Eberybody is her best friends when she needs something.

*She is artificial as NutraSweet.

Tease
This girl flirts with every guy in schol but squirm at the though of even holding hands.

* Look for these girls hanging out about halfway to firs base.

*This girls goal in life is to lead people on.

The Whiner
These people are always complaining about something, and it is never their fault.

*They make country musi sound peppy.

*They always think they are the victim

Drama Mama
You thought only ER was tragic.Nothing-and i mean-is ordinary to these people.

*Everything is always the best or worst, or the nicest or meanest thing that has ever been done.

*Everything they say is discounted as exaggeration.

Gossip
These people are absolutely insufferable. They always have some information, about something. Never trust them, because they will do it with u, they will do it to u.

*They are always whispering to someone (their new best friend).

*Most, if not all, of the things they say are either made up or highly sen-sationalized stories about others.

Perfecto
These people invented the locker organizer. With them, everything has to be in perfect order.

*Something is always wrong in these people's lives.

*When they make a 99 on a test, they will fight for two days for that last point. Enough already.

The Glamor-puss
This girl is the girl who comes to school/college with the four-hour hairdo looking like she put her make up on with a paintbrush. Everyting, and i do mean everything-hair, make up, and clothes-has to be absolutely perfect at all the times. If the building is on fire, her only concern is how she looks in that lighting.

*What u see is all u get.

*U can identiy a glamour-puss because she is posing for an imaginary cameraman.r

will i be able not to seeing u amymore?

the answer is yes!yes!yesssss!